Signs and Inspiration: For L.M.

Inspiration shows up in the strangest of places at the strangest of times. A while ago I met a lovely person through a colleague. Today this woman and I found out that we were linked in other ways, through other people. Then this woman told me that she followed my blog. A couple of years ago, I would have been thrilled to hear this. Now I’m just embarrassed because I am one of those failed bloggers who keeps promising to write more, post more…and then doesn’t. I could go into several reasons why I haven’t written but then I’d be even more embarrassed. So instead, I’ll take her acknowledgement of being a follower as a sign. I won’t promise to write more often because every time I make such a promise, I break it. Today I will see the sign and be inspired to try again–to take time to allow myself to be creative, to play with language and form, to write freely without harsh self-criticism–with no strings attached. Here’s to (today’s) new beginning.

Letting go of something without really being
Aware of the fact is often more
Upsetting than
Recognizing that you are leaving it behind until
Eventually someone reminds you of who you once were and you realize that
Nothing is forever and that you can start over again, at any time.

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Intro to Poetry, Day 8: Pleasure

What makes you happy?
Therapists like to
Ask me this question.
I don’t know, I answer.
I only seem to know
What makes me unhappy.

Do you know
What makes you happy?
I ask the therapists.
We’re here to talk about you,
They say as they ask me again:
What makes you happy?

So round and round we go
Until one of us (usually me)
Quits the game and finds a
A new partner willing to play.

The game begins again.

What makes you happy?
I don’t know.
I only know what makes me unhappy.
What makes you happy?

Happiness by Geralt www.pixabay.com

Happiness by Geralt
http://www.pixabay.com

Notes: Today’s theme was “Pleasure” and the challenge was to structure the poem using anaphora or epistrophe. The more I tried, the worse it got. While there is some repetition in my poem I’m not sure it would fall under either of those categories. I found the theme of “Pleasure” difficult to write about within the parameters of the challenge. I think I might have written a better poem had I not tried to take on the challenge, but this course is about learning to stretch my boundaries, so I can’t expect a great poem every day.

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Intro to Poetry, Day 7: Flavour Part 2 (Guest Poet)

Found Poem by H. Julian
Source: Chickadee and Canadian Living Magazines

Notes: Today while I was working on my Found Poem, my eldest son took an interest and decided he’d like to give it a try too. I gave him a few pointers and he got to work. I asked him if they ever read or wrote poetry in school. He said no, the only poetry he had heard was in our house when I read it to him. This made me kind of sad. I think it’s important for young children to learn poetry. I know that teachers are overloaded with things they are expected to teach, but I really hope that the Arts are not sacrificed as a response to this pressure. In the meantime, I plan to have more poetry writing (and reading) sessions with my son this summer since we both enjoyed the experience.

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Intro to Poetry, Day 7: Flavour

Found Poem, 07/22/2017 Source: Canadian Living Magazine

Found Poem, 07/22/2017 Source: Canadian Living Magazine

Notes: Today’s theme was “Flavour” and the challenge was to write a Found Poem, which is kind of like a collage with words. Found poetry is one of my favourite forms of poetry and I use it a lot in my research, but it’s been a while since I actually physically cut and pasted a poem onto paper. I enjoyed it quite a bit.

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Intro to Poetry, Day 6: Screen

facebook

facebook (Photo credit: sitmonkeysupreme)

Facebook:
A place to share your life with
Friends,
Family,
Co-workers.

Many status updates seem to infer that:
Everything is super positively hunky-dory
ALL THE TIME!!!!
(regardless of actual truth)
I LOVE (insert heart or smiley here)
My family!
My friends!!
My co-workers!!

This one was different–
A status updating
Friends,
Family,
Co-workers.
A note with a final goodbye.
Comments made below
Couldn’t save him.

Facebook:
The  place he shared his death
With
His family,
His friends,
His colleagues.

We need more
Than likes and shares
More than
Emoji representing how we feel
(or how we present ourselves as feeling)
More than
Facebook.

We need
People to share our lives with.

Originally written: 11/28/2013; Edited: 07/21/2017

Notes: Today’s topic was “screen” and  the challenge was to try to use enjambment, something that is in almost all of my poems, so it wasn’t that difficult of a challenge for me. However, it was a crazy, busy day so today’s poem is actually a re-post of a poem. I wrote it a few years ago after learning that a kind, gentle friend of my partner’s had died by suicide after leaving a goodbye message on Facebook. I wrote the poem to try to work through some of what I was feeling. As I re-read it today, I feel many of the same feelings I felt four years ago. Writing poetry helps me process information, but the processing is ongoing.

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Intro to Poetry, Day 5: Imperfect

Reflecting back on my life
I think about times of strife:
Was I always this sad?
It can’t all have been bad.
Then again, maybe I should hide my sharp knife.

Photo posted on Twitter by Urban Decay.

Photo posted on Twitter by Urban Decay.

Notes: Today’s theme was “Imperfect” and the challenge was to write a limerick. I had no trouble with the theme–I write a lot about my imperfections, but writing a limerick was an interesting challenge. I might try it again sometime.

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Intro to Poetry, Day 4: Journey

I loved you once.
You loved me once.
Or so we said.
But that didn’t keep us from
Being unfaithful to one another.

Why wasn’t love enough?
Was it that we didn’t love
Hard enough?
Long enough?
Or was it that we didn’t love at all?

Love—
A word we threw around without thought
Or care
Or understanding.
“I love you” we’d say.

“I love you” acted like
A marker in our relationship
We thought of it as a
Talisman,
A protective shield of sorts.

It didn’t work that way for us.
We loved.
Or so we thought.
We tried to fix what was broken.
Or so we thought.

What went wrong?
Did we not try
Hard enough?
Long enough?
Or were we too broken to be fixed?

I loved you once.
You loved me once.
“I love you” we said
As we went our separate ways
But did we really?

Whenever I think about love,
I think of you and wonder
If you think of me
When you think about love–
And the “I” and the “You” that
We once were
Together.

Notes: Today’s theme was “Journey” and the challenge was to include a simile. I think I did okay on this one.

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